ESOAL

Ok...well it's about 4 hours away from ESOAL. I just dropped off my platoon bag in the back 40 and now I'm just preparing myself for what's about to happen. It's just now within the last hour hit me. I even called Sarah to help me chill. Love you lady. :] So...where to start?

"My body is racked with pain, pangs like those of a woman in labor. I am staggard by what I hear. I am bewildered by what I see. My heart falters. Fear makes me tremble. The twilight that I once longed for is now a horror to me." Is. 21:3-4

That's one of the verses we have to memorize. Pretty darn accurate if you ask me. lol I am nervous. But God doesn't give us a spirit of fear.

For my strength comes from the LORD! And His strength NEVER
NEVER
NEVER! .....runs out!

I wrote on my arm in sharpy the word strength. Every time I feel weak I will draw strength from my God. :]

After work my co workers (all 5 of us) came together for prayer. My 'big brother' Brian, who is always strong and so passionate for the Lord was actually quiet and very reserved while we were talking about it. He even as we were walking back to dinner leaned over for a hug. I could tell that this was big for him. It is for all of us. What it is, at least for me...is that we all know God is about to do something very big in all of us. None of us will come out of this unchanged. And I think that fear of the Lord, and his breaking and re-molding...is what has us so silent and to ourselves.

I mean we all want change for the better...but change can hurt. No one wants to be broken. Or better put...our 'flesh' doesn't want to be broken. But my spirit longs for it! And that's the excited part of me that is so ready for this!

So...I'm about to go to Chapel. I'm going to do some big time praying. Because when God has a plan for a movement in the church...Satan is right there.

Be praying for me and the students here. We need it! My room mates parents are actually fasting the next 4 days for us. Not saying that you should skip out on dinner or anything. :] Just keep us in mind.

I love you guys. Talk to you in a week.
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