"Healer"

So I've been here one whole week! I can't tell you the relationships I've made. So far there's my best friend and room mate Jess...who is by my side throught out the whole day. I'm pretty sure I never go anywhere where she isn't right by me. Then there are Brook, Dorina, and Illiana who are my room mates and my sisters. :] Unfortunately tmrw I move out of that dorm into another. We will be getting our perminant residents. Which really stinks cause I've already grown so close with them. Then Tuesday I will be getting my ministry placement (aka new job). I'm really excited about that! I'm thinking that they are going to put me in the call center where I call and interview teens wanting to come to H.A. We shall see. As long as they don't have me doing maintainence work I'm fine. lol

Today I actually got nominated as ADA Which is the assistant dorm director. I will be helping lead the core room meetings with the girls and whatever else needs doing I guess. lol. I don't really know all the things they do or how I got nominated. My Core advisor just told me that she recommended me to my next room to be ADA. So that was just kind of awesome.:]

Now I have some encouraging words for you. Imagine yourself in the push up position, staring down at the hard concrete and blinking hard from the rain in your eyes. It's 5am, your arms are weak from holding yourself up and working out intensly for the last hour. Your covered in mud, your knees sting from concrete scrapes. And you have yet to catch your breath from the last 2 mile run you just finished. Now you are holding yourself up while another intern up at the front stands in the rain trying desperately to remember the Honor Academy mission statement. And everytime he misses a word, you go down and push yourself up again. But you are smiling. Cause this is worship. We are all training to be warriors. Physically and mentally. You may be thinking, "wow...that's harsh." But not at all! Because when I am weak, then I AM STRONG!


II Corinthians 12:9

"And He has said to me. "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most glady, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10) Therefore I am well content with weaknesses , with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."

Amen. :] Thank you Granny Vickie for that scripture.
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Ok...so I had to take a break while writing this. I just got back from the commitment banquet. And let me just say it was awesome. We had a great dinner (with real food!) and David Hasz got up and talked about how proud of us he was for making this choice. I mean how many people dedicate a whole year to work for the Lord? To no T.V, no secular music, no R rated movies, no video games, no dating...ect. And how much we had to look forward to. And he had us all stand up, raise our right head and make a promise before God to be honorable men and women. I got goose bumps! It was as if my Father was in the room standing up there watching all His children pldege to follow Him. Like and army swearing into battle! With Him at the front lines. Ugh it was amazing. I kept thinking oh i wish my family was here!Ya'll would have loved it. It was moving and just flipp'n awesome!!!!



Now to make this even longer (I'm actually shortening this up for those of you who don't like to sit and read forever) I had the most amazing expierence yesterday. So I was sitting with Jess in my room talking about how I was kind of scared. That yea I'm here, but now I don't know what God wants me to do. I don't know what's after this. And it's kind of daunting not to know what's in your future you know. And she was encouraging me but I still felt as if I was in the dark. SO all day I asked God to just fill me in. Over and over I was like, you have to let me know! I don't have all the time in the world. See I'm a planner. And walking in faith is one of the hardest things for me to do. But God really taught me something today. We were at worship and singing some really awesome songs and the song ends...and all goes quiet. I mean like so quiet. No transition into the next song. Just everyone sitting there in silence. So i took the time to ask again, "God...talk to me. I'm listening." And after a while the scripture poppped in my head, "Be still and know that I am God."
And I was like...ok. Random. That came from no where. But I concentrated on it. How do i know that He is God. I mean I know that...but how do you tell yourself...He is God. Then out of nowhere, Randy came on the mic and said, "you know the bible says that we need to be still and know that I AM GOD."
And my heart stopped. I couldn't even think, woah. Immediatly tears started streaming doqn my face. My God had answered me. And at first I wasn't hearing Him cause it didn't sound like the answer I was looking for. It's funny how sometimes we miss those amazing moments with God just cause we're looking for he answer that we want. Then we started singing "healer"

You hold my every moment.You calm my raging seas.
You walk with me through fire.And heal all my disease.
I trust in you.I trust in you.
I believeYou're my healer.I believeYou are all i need.
I believe.You're my portion.I believeYou're more than enough for me.
Jesus, you're all i need.
Nothing is impossible for you.
Nothing is impossible.
Nothing is impossible for you.Y
ou hold my world in your hands

You can imagine how awe struck I was. He had answered me directly. Without a doubt. And, I have my answer. I need to be still. He is God. He will take care of things.

"And I trust in You"