So, today has been very action packed to say the very least. But good. :] I've finally reached the point to where I've become just a tad homesick. Being around kids your age all the time can have it's trying times. For example, learning patience. Suzie no-name loveeeeees to try my patience. She does this by pointing out my flaws. Or things I'm doing wrong. But what gets me...what really just makes me want to kick her is she does it, then throws in this perfect little smile at the end. Kinda like, 'I totally just made you look like a fool...but I did it nicely.' Ah!!!!! So ya, the Lord is really teaching me to be kind and loving. Cause unlike my siblings...I can't blow up at her one day and know she'll still like me the next. lol But it's all good. I knew what i was signing up for. I dont' see much of my room mates anyways. We're usually on the field, in class, or working now.
Last night I got 5 hours of sleep. Usually I get 6, but now we have to wake up at 4:20am to go to corporate. Fun stuff. But I'm doing so awesome! I ran two miles today without stopping. Just prayed the whole way and kept my focus on Him. Did you know your body can do like 40% more than your mind tells it? Every time I feel tired I just know it's Satan's way of keeping me from reaching my goal. Ah, but I did take a nasty spill on the road while running today. We had to run in small groups...to we're all in lines keeping the same pace. I was doing fine but the girl infront of me was really struggling. And she kept slowing down all the sudden or swerving to the right and throwing me off cause I had to follow behind her and between to lines of like huge line backer guys! So we're running then I don't know she just decides, "I'm tired I'm gunna stop." Well next thing I know her back is coming at me at a very alarming speed and I'm trying to slow down to keep from plowing her into the ground...and my feet catch somethingand I go sailing forward. Totally ruined my knees, and had to run the next mile with throbbing legs. (Which still feel like they're on fire) And she didn't even turn around to say sorry. Which you know is ok. The only thing I was concerned about was all the linebacker boys trampling my already cripled body. So ya, battle scar story of the day. lol
Well here's some exciting news! I got my ministry placement today! I am in ATF opperations. Which basically is secretary work. I'm not sure which placement they'll have me in or what all I'll do, but so far it sounds pretty cool! And I really wanted to work with Aquire the Fire (for those of you who don't know what it is it's a christian conference that travels all over america preaching to the youth.)And I'll be doing the scheduals and hotel reservations and booking bands that are coming. All this cool stuff! I'm really excited. Cause I know this is a way to be challenged. I've never really done anything like this. And one of us is actually going to be the driect secretary for one of the executive leaders here. Ah! Kind of intimidating...I don't think they'll pick me for that one. But I know where ever I get placed it'll be awesome.
Well I'm off now. dont' really have that much to write today. I miss you guys so much now. I'm tired of washing my own clothes and eating chicken every day!
<3
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
small praise
I can't tell you how wonderful it is to have your friends praising with you on the left and right. I think that has been my favorite part of this journey so far. Is the relationsips I've made. :]
Friday, August 22, 2008
"Healer"
So I've been here one whole week! I can't tell you the relationships I've made. So far there's my best friend and room mate Jess...who is by my side throught out the whole day. I'm pretty sure I never go anywhere where she isn't right by me. Then there are Brook, Dorina, and Illiana who are my room mates and my sisters. :] Unfortunately tmrw I move out of that dorm into another. We will be getting our perminant residents. Which really stinks cause I've already grown so close with them. Then Tuesday I will be getting my ministry placement (aka new job). I'm really excited about that! I'm thinking that they are going to put me in the call center where I call and interview teens wanting to come to H.A. We shall see. As long as they don't have me doing maintainence work I'm fine. lol
Today I actually got nominated as ADA Which is the assistant dorm director. I will be helping lead the core room meetings with the girls and whatever else needs doing I guess. lol. I don't really know all the things they do or how I got nominated. My Core advisor just told me that she recommended me to my next room to be ADA. So that was just kind of awesome.:]
Now I have some encouraging words for you. Imagine yourself in the push up position, staring down at the hard concrete and blinking hard from the rain in your eyes. It's 5am, your arms are weak from holding yourself up and working out intensly for the last hour. Your covered in mud, your knees sting from concrete scrapes. And you have yet to catch your breath from the last 2 mile run you just finished. Now you are holding yourself up while another intern up at the front stands in the rain trying desperately to remember the Honor Academy mission statement. And everytime he misses a word, you go down and push yourself up again. But you are smiling. Cause this is worship. We are all training to be warriors. Physically and mentally. You may be thinking, "wow...that's harsh." But not at all! Because when I am weak, then I AM STRONG!
II Corinthians 12:9
"And He has said to me. "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most glady, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10) Therefore I am well content with weaknesses , with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."
Amen. :] Thank you Granny Vickie for that scripture.
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Ok...so I had to take a break while writing this. I just got back from the commitment banquet. And let me just say it was awesome. We had a great dinner (with real food!) and David Hasz got up and talked about how proud of us he was for making this choice. I mean how many people dedicate a whole year to work for the Lord? To no T.V, no secular music, no R rated movies, no video games, no dating...ect. And how much we had to look forward to. And he had us all stand up, raise our right head and make a promise before God to be honorable men and women. I got goose bumps! It was as if my Father was in the room standing up there watching all His children pldege to follow Him. Like and army swearing into battle! With Him at the front lines. Ugh it was amazing. I kept thinking oh i wish my family was here!Ya'll would have loved it. It was moving and just flipp'n awesome!!!!
Now to make this even longer (I'm actually shortening this up for those of you who don't like to sit and read forever) I had the most amazing expierence yesterday. So I was sitting with Jess in my room talking about how I was kind of scared. That yea I'm here, but now I don't know what God wants me to do. I don't know what's after this. And it's kind of daunting not to know what's in your future you know. And she was encouraging me but I still felt as if I was in the dark. SO all day I asked God to just fill me in. Over and over I was like, you have to let me know! I don't have all the time in the world. See I'm a planner. And walking in faith is one of the hardest things for me to do. But God really taught me something today. We were at worship and singing some really awesome songs and the song ends...and all goes quiet. I mean like so quiet. No transition into the next song. Just everyone sitting there in silence. So i took the time to ask again, "God...talk to me. I'm listening." And after a while the scripture poppped in my head, "Be still and know that I am God."
And I was like...ok. Random. That came from no where. But I concentrated on it. How do i know that He is God. I mean I know that...but how do you tell yourself...He is God. Then out of nowhere, Randy came on the mic and said, "you know the bible says that we need to be still and know that I AM GOD."
And my heart stopped. I couldn't even think, woah. Immediatly tears started streaming doqn my face. My God had answered me. And at first I wasn't hearing Him cause it didn't sound like the answer I was looking for. It's funny how sometimes we miss those amazing moments with God just cause we're looking for he answer that we want. Then we started singing "healer"
You hold my every moment.You calm my raging seas.
You walk with me through fire.And heal all my disease.
I trust in you.I trust in you.
I believeYou're my healer.I believeYou are all i need.
I believe.You're my portion.I believeYou're more than enough for me.
Jesus, you're all i need.
Nothing is impossible for you.
Nothing is impossible.
Nothing is impossible for you.Y
ou hold my world in your hands
Today I actually got nominated as ADA Which is the assistant dorm director. I will be helping lead the core room meetings with the girls and whatever else needs doing I guess. lol. I don't really know all the things they do or how I got nominated. My Core advisor just told me that she recommended me to my next room to be ADA. So that was just kind of awesome.:]
Now I have some encouraging words for you. Imagine yourself in the push up position, staring down at the hard concrete and blinking hard from the rain in your eyes. It's 5am, your arms are weak from holding yourself up and working out intensly for the last hour. Your covered in mud, your knees sting from concrete scrapes. And you have yet to catch your breath from the last 2 mile run you just finished. Now you are holding yourself up while another intern up at the front stands in the rain trying desperately to remember the Honor Academy mission statement. And everytime he misses a word, you go down and push yourself up again. But you are smiling. Cause this is worship. We are all training to be warriors. Physically and mentally. You may be thinking, "wow...that's harsh." But not at all! Because when I am weak, then I AM STRONG!
II Corinthians 12:9
"And He has said to me. "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most glady, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 10) Therefore I am well content with weaknesses , with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong."
Amen. :] Thank you Granny Vickie for that scripture.
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Ok...so I had to take a break while writing this. I just got back from the commitment banquet. And let me just say it was awesome. We had a great dinner (with real food!) and David Hasz got up and talked about how proud of us he was for making this choice. I mean how many people dedicate a whole year to work for the Lord? To no T.V, no secular music, no R rated movies, no video games, no dating...ect. And how much we had to look forward to. And he had us all stand up, raise our right head and make a promise before God to be honorable men and women. I got goose bumps! It was as if my Father was in the room standing up there watching all His children pldege to follow Him. Like and army swearing into battle! With Him at the front lines. Ugh it was amazing. I kept thinking oh i wish my family was here!Ya'll would have loved it. It was moving and just flipp'n awesome!!!!
Now to make this even longer (I'm actually shortening this up for those of you who don't like to sit and read forever) I had the most amazing expierence yesterday. So I was sitting with Jess in my room talking about how I was kind of scared. That yea I'm here, but now I don't know what God wants me to do. I don't know what's after this. And it's kind of daunting not to know what's in your future you know. And she was encouraging me but I still felt as if I was in the dark. SO all day I asked God to just fill me in. Over and over I was like, you have to let me know! I don't have all the time in the world. See I'm a planner. And walking in faith is one of the hardest things for me to do. But God really taught me something today. We were at worship and singing some really awesome songs and the song ends...and all goes quiet. I mean like so quiet. No transition into the next song. Just everyone sitting there in silence. So i took the time to ask again, "God...talk to me. I'm listening." And after a while the scripture poppped in my head, "Be still and know that I am God."
And I was like...ok. Random. That came from no where. But I concentrated on it. How do i know that He is God. I mean I know that...but how do you tell yourself...He is God. Then out of nowhere, Randy came on the mic and said, "you know the bible says that we need to be still and know that I AM GOD."
And my heart stopped. I couldn't even think, woah. Immediatly tears started streaming doqn my face. My God had answered me. And at first I wasn't hearing Him cause it didn't sound like the answer I was looking for. It's funny how sometimes we miss those amazing moments with God just cause we're looking for he answer that we want. Then we started singing "healer"
You hold my every moment.You calm my raging seas.
You walk with me through fire.And heal all my disease.
I trust in you.I trust in you.
I believeYou're my healer.I believeYou are all i need.
I believe.You're my portion.I believeYou're more than enough for me.
Jesus, you're all i need.
Nothing is impossible for you.
Nothing is impossible.
Nothing is impossible for you.Y
ou hold my world in your hands
You can imagine how awe struck I was. He had answered me directly. Without a doubt. And, I have my answer. I need to be still. He is God. He will take care of things.
"And I trust in You"
Monday, August 18, 2008
Mission Impossible
So I'm here at honor academy. And I just have to tell you all...You're missing out! It is so amazing being here. Like imagine a good sermon with amazing worship and just spending time in His presence for a whole day. That's what we do here. Everything...even working out...we are worshipping or singing or wrtiing to Him. All we have is literally His.
But it's not just some Jesus camp here. They aren't playing around. I have quite literally painted a giant target sign on my head for Satan. He is already hitting me and trying to bring me down. But I am so encouraged by my friends and the presence of God is so strong here that it has been so easy to say, "Back off Satan! I am doing the Lord's work and I am not going to let you do anything to ruin that for me!" That doesn't mean I'm happy all the time. I have already sat crying thinking, 'what have I gotten myself into. This is so hard. Am I really cut out to do this?' But I read today is Psalm 34 that God is close to the broken hearted and He saves the crushed in spirit. My God is strong. And through Him I can do all things!
I do miss ya'll though. But NOT as much as I miss real FOOD! I sware I have eated chicken for every meal! Even if they say oh this is so and so...there is still a trace of chicken that they hid in there I know it! Like the other day I had these things that were trying really hard to be swedish meat balls but they looked more like something the cat left on the carpet. I'm dead serious. No exaggerating on this one. And I had a marshmello egg this morning. It was like those little peeps things you get on easter, but white with a yellow dot in the middle. ha ha. But it tasted like air so i ate it. I'm thinking it was something like mana. :]
So every morning we wake up at 5:15 am for this thing called corperate. Basically we work out for an hour as a way to worship and thank God for our ability to be alive and moving. (But after i don't feel so alive and I def. can't move.) Today it rained...hard. I was laying down doing sit ups and pretty much drowning. Then we run a mile non stop. So any of you who have ever said i was lazy...EAT YOUR WORDS! I had to lay in muddy puddles and hold a push up postion while being drenched, cold, and TIRED! I'm in Jesus boot camp.
Right now we are training for E.S.O.L which is our next LTE. ESOAL (Emotionally Stretching Opportunity of a Lifetime) is an optional LTE designed to stretch you emotionally and physically. It's actually the most popular and influential LTE. Being stretched through simple repetition allows you to confront potential problem areas in your lives that often go undetected. The Honor Academy staff works intensely with you during this LTE to ensure that you take full advantage of this unique learning opportunity. We had a member of the U.S army here the other day who said that E.S.O.L was actually harder than any training he had. Please pray...I'm nervous. :/
Actually if you go to http://www.honoracademy.com/ltes.php there is a video on it. Enjoy.
I love you guys. I just wanted to let you know that I have grown more in the last two days than i have in months. God is reaching in and grabbing whatever impurities I have and molding me into the woman of God HE CREATED ME TO BE. I'm too busy to miss you guys. Sorry. I'm in H.A I'm not allowed to lie. Ha ha. Hope ya'll are enjoying your week. Keep checking the blog. There is still so much i have to say but it's time for mystery meat of the day! my guesses is it's going to be some kind of chicken lasagna. We shall see...
<3 Brit
But it's not just some Jesus camp here. They aren't playing around. I have quite literally painted a giant target sign on my head for Satan. He is already hitting me and trying to bring me down. But I am so encouraged by my friends and the presence of God is so strong here that it has been so easy to say, "Back off Satan! I am doing the Lord's work and I am not going to let you do anything to ruin that for me!" That doesn't mean I'm happy all the time. I have already sat crying thinking, 'what have I gotten myself into. This is so hard. Am I really cut out to do this?' But I read today is Psalm 34 that God is close to the broken hearted and He saves the crushed in spirit. My God is strong. And through Him I can do all things!
I do miss ya'll though. But NOT as much as I miss real FOOD! I sware I have eated chicken for every meal! Even if they say oh this is so and so...there is still a trace of chicken that they hid in there I know it! Like the other day I had these things that were trying really hard to be swedish meat balls but they looked more like something the cat left on the carpet. I'm dead serious. No exaggerating on this one. And I had a marshmello egg this morning. It was like those little peeps things you get on easter, but white with a yellow dot in the middle. ha ha. But it tasted like air so i ate it. I'm thinking it was something like mana. :]
So every morning we wake up at 5:15 am for this thing called corperate. Basically we work out for an hour as a way to worship and thank God for our ability to be alive and moving. (But after i don't feel so alive and I def. can't move.) Today it rained...hard. I was laying down doing sit ups and pretty much drowning. Then we run a mile non stop. So any of you who have ever said i was lazy...EAT YOUR WORDS! I had to lay in muddy puddles and hold a push up postion while being drenched, cold, and TIRED! I'm in Jesus boot camp.
Right now we are training for E.S.O.L which is our next LTE. ESOAL (Emotionally Stretching Opportunity of a Lifetime) is an optional LTE designed to stretch you emotionally and physically. It's actually the most popular and influential LTE. Being stretched through simple repetition allows you to confront potential problem areas in your lives that often go undetected. The Honor Academy staff works intensely with you during this LTE to ensure that you take full advantage of this unique learning opportunity. We had a member of the U.S army here the other day who said that E.S.O.L was actually harder than any training he had. Please pray...I'm nervous. :/
Actually if you go to http://www.honoracademy.com/ltes.php there is a video on it. Enjoy.
I love you guys. I just wanted to let you know that I have grown more in the last two days than i have in months. God is reaching in and grabbing whatever impurities I have and molding me into the woman of God HE CREATED ME TO BE. I'm too busy to miss you guys. Sorry. I'm in H.A I'm not allowed to lie. Ha ha. Hope ya'll are enjoying your week. Keep checking the blog. There is still so much i have to say but it's time for mystery meat of the day! my guesses is it's going to be some kind of chicken lasagna. We shall see...
<3 Brit
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Last Day
So, this is my first actual time using this blog thing. I have just overcome my recent myspace addiction which was a hard and trying process but I made it through. (Yet moving from one blogging website to another doesn't seem life progress to me). :]
Tmrw is my last day home before I'm off. Kinda scared but God is revealing to me in small ways all throughout the day that there is nothing to be scared of. You can't have a leap of faith without having a cliff to jump off. Am i right.
But my family and friends are so supportive of me. And I can't tell ya'll how much that means to me. It's like running a race and having people cheer you on. You wouldn't be very motivated to win if you didn't have people rooting you on. So thank you guys for cheering me on.
Well, I think I have just abou everything I need to get beofre i go. Of coarse it's gunna be like, "Oh!" *slaps head* why didn't I think of that. Thank god, (quiet literally) that there is a Walmart down the street. Now if only there was a Taco Bell...
It might be a while before I get on this thing again. So hang in there...all 3 of you who are actually reading this. Nite.
-B
Tmrw is my last day home before I'm off. Kinda scared but God is revealing to me in small ways all throughout the day that there is nothing to be scared of. You can't have a leap of faith without having a cliff to jump off. Am i right.
But my family and friends are so supportive of me. And I can't tell ya'll how much that means to me. It's like running a race and having people cheer you on. You wouldn't be very motivated to win if you didn't have people rooting you on. So thank you guys for cheering me on.
Well, I think I have just abou everything I need to get beofre i go. Of coarse it's gunna be like, "Oh!" *slaps head* why didn't I think of that. Thank god, (quiet literally) that there is a Walmart down the street. Now if only there was a Taco Bell...
It might be a while before I get on this thing again. So hang in there...all 3 of you who are actually reading this. Nite.
-B
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
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